When you leave something behind, it's inevitable to have this longing to return. And so, you look out for familiar things in your new situation, just to have a fibre to connect the new with the past.
I didn't know I was doing the exact same thing unconsciously until I realised that I was so amused at finding yet another connection with the past - a person's name in a document! To keep count, this is the third thing I've discovered and tied back with the past.
In the non-reality realm, I've had a couple of strange dreams connecting me with the past. The recent was quite vivid where I was offered a completely different position in my ex-employer by someone whom I've never met before. The thing that made it believable was that someone I knew was there too, and she was also trying for another position - but that didn't make sense as she is still working there (in the real world).
Maybe I'm still hung up on the past. Maybe I need more time to adapt to the idea that the past is gone and the future is what I should be concerned with. Maybe I need to start cutting down the ties that bind me to the past and find leads to tie me to the future.
Or maybe I'm just talking nonsense and being a romantic fool.
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