Why?

why must something simple always turn out to be something impossible? why do some people just love to complicate matters? all my life i've experienced this... right here at home... and everywhere... i'm so sick of it! the way i see it, it's so bloody simple... but people must start worrying about stupid trivial things that are more than likely won't happen... just making it hard for me to have a pleasant day... worry! worry! worry! it is pobably some kind of compulsive paranoia! the worst part of it is that it always has to happen during crucial parts of my life... for instance, spm... gave me so much SHIT! as if i hadn't enough on my mind... he had to add another burden onto my load of worries... although it is very un-christian of me, i'll never forget the reaction and the reluctance to assist! the immediate "NO" response... the emotional trauma it caused... and the feeble attempt for redemption... why do i not see any changes in the person who has been 'saved'? maybe i've set a bad example? am i stumbling someone in their walk of faith?

why do people keep having doubts? do they think they are cleverer, greater, superior to the bible, Jesus and God? why must they always seek a logical and scientific explanation to God? do they actually believe that they can figure out how God works? if that is so, then they are trying to be God rather than get closer to Him! i just can't stand it when someone has this satisfied smirk when they think they've manage to disprove some part of the bible (and still call themselves christian)... because the way i see it, these 'people' have totally missed the point... instead of trying to disprove the bible, they should have spent that time increasing their faith, asking the Lord for direction, trusting in Him and giving their lives to Him...

ok, that was just a stream of angry thoughts... i've unburdened them here and no longer wish to be recalled to them. it may be false and it may be true... but whatever! i'm not publishing a history book here so it doesn't really matter whether the facts are accountable for... this is just a place to crap on = blog... nothing here should be taken too seriously... because i usually blog according to my current emotions...

therefore, i'm after all a girl with emotions!!! i think i have never mentioned this, but lately, i've come to a conclusion that i think more like a guy than a girl... i don't get touched by things other girls cry about... i always end up listening to people's problems rather than exercising my 15,000 word quota a day (maybe one day i'll explode with all these unspent words!!! like rev. bernard ankomah said... a time bomb waiting to explode) ... i don't take forever to get dressed (in fact i can get ready faster than my bro!!!)... i don't keep thinking i'm fat (but i keep hearing it from everyone!!! arghh... it's really getting tiring!)... and i really don't mind getting my hands dirty when the occasion arises (most girly girls would squirm and refuse to do the job...)... but don't get me wrong, i'm not a tom boy... i love wearing skirts and looking pretty and doing other girly stuff, having crushes (but not advertising them)... perhaps this state of mind constitutes that i'm a cold person!?! perhaps that is what deter guys! hahahahaa... that's something to really brood on... but all in all, i'm pretty sure i'm not ready for a bgr... but as some wise friends have pointed out, it'll happen when it happens... can't really plan it out... so be it!!!