before i get into the events that concern the title of this post, i just want to mention something about my unexpected shopping spree in summit yesterday! after mom fetched me, we decided on the spur of the moment, to go to summit sj... and we went dvd shopping... bought a couple of them and then we went form shop to shop after that... and i ended up buying 2 skirts... white crinkled skirt with sequin motive on the waist band (which actually my roomate and her friend bought a black version for the 'malam apresiasi'... hehehe) and a yellow short skirt with simple embroidery on it... i like them alot! so that settles my chinese new year garbs... i wasn't planning to get any in the first place... funny that we can always find something nice when we are not looking for something nice!
so, about broken plans... i was supposed to go to petaling street this morning with yen chyng and i cancelled it last night because i had spent too much money yesterday and didn't want to tempt myself anymore... poor girl had to stay in college over night... i wanted to go to petaling street to check out more fake kipling bags... they're not as nicely made as the original ones but the designs are quite nice and different from the shop ones... and i wanted to get some food there and maybe even go for chinese new year shopping... but alas, it was not meant to be...
now, about empty promises... my uni friends were planning to watch memoirs of a geisha and i had asked them to include me if they went... and i just found out that they went today... and not a mention of it to me!! but i can understand that because i don't think i'm really accepeted into their clique... not fun enough ma... but poor mei lin was so distraught when one of them called her up at the very last minute to ask her whether she could fill in because li sum couldn't make it... i mean, even if you wanted someone to fill in, you shouldn't be so frank as to reveal the whole situation... and the worst part of it was that seemingly close friends didn't even breathe a word to her... so i've come to a conclusion that we can't really rely a 100% on our new-found friends in uni... for me, the only person i can actually count on is yen chyng... she doesn't "f.f.k." me... she always tells me earlier if she can't make it or doesn't want to do something...
dwelling on friendship... i learned that the further in we get to the real world, everything (including friendship) is not what it seems to be... the way i see it is that university is just a step away from the real and vicious world... and coming closer to it is making me face reality that in the secular world, almost everything is superficial... this makes me feel like i'm in the process of shedding off the happy and care-free years of childhood... which is abit depressing... like yearning for something that has already passed on... not so many hearty laughs these days... learning to grow up is tough... and now i suddenly understand why some teenagers go astray following the path to destruction... they're forced to face reality and grow up when they weren't ready... so they result to escapism which unfortunately comes packeged with addiction and destruction... i believe everyone has their own special "thing" for escapism but the difference is how harmful are the after-effects... mine's probably reading and my imagination... but not all the time though...
i don't know why i'm in the mood to write stuff that i truely think and believe in my heart today... heavy stuff!!! bringing the mood down... i must post something more cheerful in the future!!!
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