True Colours?

i was just thinking back on some recent memories and found something puzzling... isn't it just plain weird that one can change one's character when a certain situation arises? it's like nothing else matters... everything that was painstakingly made (or what seemed to be, if i am not mistaken) is brushed aside... in the conquest of victory!?! and this "victory" is not one that can be measured with an award or something that is of substancial worth... with these actions, i have come to doubt how far does a friendship really go? what was the basis of the friendship when it was just formed? why the sudden change? could this new world that i have recently been admitted into be this shallow? this fake? this cunning?

ok, that was just a pile of bull shit (a.k.a. cow dung! hehehe)... sometimes i just get too caught up in the moment that i tend to overdramatize stuff... i guess that's the result of being a science student (as mrs. tan used to say) - we think too much... that WE are the ones that make the problem complicated when it could just be a simple problem that a 5-year-old could solve in a wink of an eye...

oh yea... i keep forgetting to put this weird bit on this blog... i feel like drinking my dish-washing detergent!!! (don't sound the alarms, i'm not suicidal...) it's just that it smells of apple and everytime i wash the dishes, it reminds me of apple juice... and i'd start craving for apple juice!!! but unfortunately, i haven't had a drop of anything that has got to do with apples... so far... so if you have nothing better to do but to crave drinking your dish-washing detergent, get a bottle of Glo apple dish-washing liquid!!! it really does smell goooood!!! (at least to me la)

another weird bit... seems like almost everyone but me and my family has seen me on channel [V]... this is so weird... i sat down and watched bid it for 3 times on thursday and i didn't get to see me!!! but some of my friends has already seen me a couple of times!!! this is NOT FAIR!!! i wanna see how geeky i am on tv!!! sheesh... i need to get a life!!! and i can't rub it into LK that i've been on tv more times than he has!!! although he's the performing one in the family...